Sunday, June 22, 2008
Pay my RespectsThis is my 2nd time visiting my eldest uncle's grave.
I still remembered when I went last year.
My heart aches when I stood before the grave.
Last year, my aunt drove us there (Choa Chu Kang Cemetary) at the late sunny morning.
We had a hard time finding the number of his grave as my grandma said the year before there aren't as many graves yet.
The first year I didn't go as I was working.
Finally, we found after some time.
I felt something in my heart as I looked upon it.
Emotions whelming up and around...
My grandma was rumbling about the condition of the place and when her hand touched his picture, her face expression changed.
She said 'Time flies, it has been 2 years.'
Her tears came flowing down continously.
It's sad.
My mum tried to console her but ended up crying with my grandma.
I felt tears around my eyes.
I tried to control.
Only my sis and aunt were calm.
I still remembered him during the last months of his life.
He kept in close contact with my mum and seen him quite often back then.
Though I didn't talk much to him but he always smiles and acknowledged my greetings to him.
On the day he passed away, I went to visit him with my mum.
But he went to toilet at that time and my mum asked me to go home first.
When I was home, some time later my mum called to said he has passed away.
This year, we went on a wet and sunny early afternoon.
Again, another year has passed.
It's been 3 years since he died.
More and more graves I saw.
This year though we have heavy feelings but not as before.
My grandma said it's good that he left as he was suffering from alot of pain from his illness.
He is in good hands now and I'm sure he is happy.
Till next year then Uncle.
I'll visit and pay my respects to you.
