hallowing on this halloween
Saturday, October 31, 2009
what is filling the vessel of my life?
is it a bitter attitude that leads to foolish disputes and strife, or is it a sweet spirit that leads to righteousness, faith, love and peace?
surprise moment @ work
Friday, October 30, 2009
finally sat down to upload these pictures taken on 23rd Oct.
not my usual practice to show my face but i reckon it's ok to make an exception.
self-reflection
Thursday, October 29, 2009
this evening, i went to attend an event.
just myself.
i think it's something i should do.
i realised what i have missed all along.
something so near yet i never once make an effort to more pay attention to.
listening to the happy memories, sad regrets and seeing the tears flow.
in a way or so, i felt inspired by such notions.
i took a longer bus route home.
i choose to.
to make myself think.
to make myself reflect.
sometimes loss can be in a form of gain.
it's only a matter of whether the gain results positively or negatively.
not a good year
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
this year isn't a good year in some aspects.
loss especially... loss of someone important in my life, loss of somethings i treasured...
but today i will mention in particularly - death...
not just other death around the world but revolving in my circle of life as well.
you can't stop the future.
you can't rewind the past.
you can only continue to live by moving forward.
brace yourself with strength and courage.
live not just for yourself, and also for those who cares and loves you.
it can't be well just overnight.
it will take a period of time.
but most important is to treat yourself well no matter what.
belated? never... from my dear old friend
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
"Hi Hi, This is a bit late ya..." - Ginn
i'm not usually the kind to put my picture online but this time i made an exception.
thank you for taking the time and making the effort to photoshop the image.
it means alot to me.
i like it.
**(you still have my picture from our gold coast trip 3 years old.)
trick or treat
Monday, October 26, 2009
just when i thought it's over...
trick
or
treat
thanks to all the staff.
i can't remember every names whom have contributed...
and i have yet to thank each of you but i appreciate all your nice thoughts.
fated or destiny
Sunday, October 25, 2009
i chanced upon something and spend about 30 minutes reading.
something in my mind told me to.
a night is gone and i'm still thinking about the contents of it.
no... actually, i woke up to the thoughts of it.
probably i need to feel and ponder over it now so i can reflect upon myself.
i am thankful for this course of action coz if not, i will not know and probably never.
from it, i realised:
people choose to be selfish - despite that there are people with bigger heart.
(i'm learning to be)people choose to hurt - so that they can achieve their own intentions.
(i don't want to be)people choose to be ungrateful - there's an unlying motive in one's mind.
(i wouldn't want to resort that)i felt sorry.
i felt pity.
i felt 'it could have', 'if only'.
life is a constant change.
what we are at different stages of our lives created those changes.
choices we made at those moments changes our lives.
afterthat, everything will never be the same again.
we can never turn back time or regain what it was when it began, what it used to be and how it will be.
or simply, some things are just not meant to be.
i told people, there are usually signs appearing before or signifying the result/s.
personally, there are times i failed to see or sense it in my course of life.
that's why, i have to go through the consequences (so-called rough patch in life).
have i wasted time after course when i could have avoided it initially?
looking and thinking back now makes me appreciate what has for me after the outcome.
no matter how the heart feels and the mind thinks, somehow it eventually has to go with what the eyes sees.
i have made some decisions and i will try to stick to it.
Jo, u have to step out of the circle yourself and look at things from a different perspective.
U can. - by Joey
the no-fuss day
Saturday, October 24, 2009
thank you my dear little sister for the swensen's kids ice cream cake.
thank you my parents and aunts for lunch.
(the absence of my brother sure give them an opportunity to divert their attention to me.)i have received wishes via sms-es today.
a mixture of feelings but nonetheless...
thank you all for remembering.
i appreciate all your thoughts.
and will keep all your wishes for me in my heart.
thanks to jess for your surprise gift delivery to my home (when no one is there to receive).
as i said, the balloon with the gift looks just like 'UP'.
guess what joey, this year feels different because i finally have my three 'singers'.
for the 1st time - my sis, mummy and daddy sung for me.
a year older
i'm a year older at the stroke of midnight a couple of hours ago.
this year is definitely different from last year and the year before, especially emotionally.
there are sad and happy ones but the unspoken shall be kept in my heart.
at this moment of my life, i have hardly anyone whom i considered my friends.
i'm happy they remembered though i stubbornly don't want to make a fuss.
thank you to all the staff who once again try to surprise me by switching off the lights with a song.
**(2 consecutive years pulling off the same stunt still warms my heart.)
this year has additional bonus coz my fellow colleague announced the wishes on sound system before the store is closing in 2 minutes time.
even the customers joined in the rendition of the song (english, mandarin & malay).
6 years in the company, i have never seen anyone else having such experiences.
that is so ... but many thanks to them... i have already said numerous times today.
thank you my dear joey.
u surprised me with the 'Transformer' movie poster and Stitchy items.
it's abit so not me but i will use it.
(at least, you remember something i like.)
thank you my dear jess.
i enjoy the place you brought me to eat.
and sharing the strawberry shortcake with me.
thank you my dear jaime.
first person who had this with me one month before.
the gifts are too much but i will use it.
a year older...
i can't guarantee i will be wiser and better but i will try not to repeat my mistakes and ensure i will cherish those who care for me.
speechless yet touched
http://jadeartz.blogspot.com/
thank you my dear qiyu.
the dedicated drawing featured in your blog is so fantastic and excellent drawn.
i appreciate your effort, thoughts and will to do it.
suitability or unsuitability
Thursday, October 22, 2009
there are certain times when i will feel out-of-place.
maybe i don't want to be in a situation which i have or need to do certain actions, say certain words and think certain ways.
i don't feel like it at all.
coz i just feel not right.
most of all, it is not and will not be the 'me'.
feeling good
Monday, October 19, 2009
*pat myself on my back*
i did something nice today which makes me feel good.
it's out of the ordinary which i guess not anyone will be willing and bother to do.
how far will you go for a person - someone not relate to you, someone who is not of a close friend?
i heard of the person's story.
it's rather unfortunate and i presume all i can do is to offer my listening ear and words of concern once awhile.
i did not put the issue aside eventhough i can choose not to care.
so, i went talking to people whom might be able to make a difference.
but each time came cold water poured to my face.
just this afternoon, i told the person: "we got no choice since next week is the dateline. let's go straight up to *****. don't worry, i will be with you."
challenge the impossible!
who says there's no 1st time to everything?
eventually?
... see from the subjected title.
i'm glad i've did something.
in my dreams
Saturday, October 17, 2009
have you ever had someone telling you that?
or you have said that to yourself before?
people said in life if you really want something so bad and you keep thinking about it night and day... day and night...
but on the other hand you know you will never get it ... then probably it's only in your dreams.
"dream about it, maybe you'll have it." - sounds familiar?
i did.
in fact, a couple of times these few months.
i woke up mocking at myself with those words coz it's really in my dreams that the unrealistic, unattainable, unachievable, unbelievable, undeniable... stuff comes true.
the feeling of it in my dream/s is so real.
i can almost touch it.
but when i wake up at the next moment, it's gone.
a smile from my face becomes a frown.
i guess it is really in my dreams then i can feel what i want and hope to be.
win some, lose some
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
there's a saying in life: "you win some, you lose some."
today, i experienced that sentence in a situation which i can relate those words to.
however, for me it's: "i lost some, i won some."
...
...
i wish you are still here to share the moment with me.
...
...
if only...
choice of decision
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
a colleague gave me a pair of movie preview tickets to 'my sister's keeper'.
the person i want to watch with came to my mind.
in the end, i didn't watch.
i gave the free tickets away to someone else.
there are some things in life which you only want to do with certain people.
since the person i want to watch with can't watch with me.
i rather don't watch at all.
the movie is secondary.
the person in my mind means much more to me.
hiatus
Monday, October 12, 2009
hiatus: break, gap, esp. in a series, account, or chain of proof; break between ending, and another beginning.
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