never thought i will be experiencing it this early!
my career life has come to a point where i can picture myself standing in the middle of the junction.

which direction/path to take?
where do i go from here?
is this what i want?
am i escaping from the current situation?
am i afraid to overcome the setbacks?
am i able to learn anymore from my superiors?
is there anymore things for me to learn in this company?
are there anymore challenges for me to take on?
these are the few questions that keep popping into my head these recent months.

from where i am now in this position...
frankly speaking; -
1. i see many things.
2. i hear many things.
3. i speak many things.
4. i do many things.
5. i experience many things.
6. i feel many things.
7. i think many things.
certain things works in a vicious cycle.
it goes back to me eventually.

i think i'm tired of it.
actually,
some things can be avoided,
some can be rectified,
some can be solved,
some can be controlled.

if no one wants to get up from their comfort zone to do something about it, then i can say; what's the point of staying on and slog my life.
am i the only one to have that 'sense'?

i've been feeling negatively lately.
a couple of days ago, i asked my dear friend; 'what's positive about working in this company now?'
hhhhmmm....!!!! (moment of silence)
how about:
- i'm still holding on a job.
- my two departments of dedicated and hardworking staff.
well, i think that's it.

it used to be so much more but at this moment...
things changed,
situation changed,
directions changed,
people changed...
i've changed.

somewhere out there, somehow there's a place that's suits me.
now thinking about it, these 5 over years climbing up the corporate ladder is a challenge for me.
i had achieved what i wanted.
now i feel perhaps it's time for me to move on.

it's always easier to think better after sorting out my thoughts and feelings.