jess, my dearest old friend of 10 years; arranged a date with me this evening to cheer me up.
we had dinner and watch a movie.
probably she wanted to take my mind of somethings.
the last movie/s we watched together was 10 years ago in Sydney while we were doing our degree course.
i still remember it's 'girl interrupted' and 'dogma'.
eversince she knew i was feeling down and upset, she has been sending me verses and praying for me to be strong again.
seeing the same blur blur her standing in front of me tonight simply warms my heart.
i haven't meet any of my friends for a long long time.
i last saw her was her wedding day last december.
she said i've lost weight.
i told her it's the t-shirt big that's why.
she shakes her head and insisted on her views.
oh well...
we did some catching up and she shared with me a story of her own.
it goes like this:
i once felt sad and unwanted.
i regret not letting anyone knew.
my family felt i was down but i didn't let them or any of my friends know.
i just took it upon myself, i thought i could forget and heal over time.
so one day, i went to church, to the altar to receive prayer from the pastor.
i didn't tell him i was sad.
when the pastor prayed for me, he saw a vision.
he saw a rose on a piece of land full of messy wild grass and there was this rose that stood firm and still.
most of all, it's pleasing to God's eyes.
no matter how unwanted, the rose is beautiful and pure in God's eyes.
she said to me, i am like the rose, beautiful in God's eyes no matter what happened or what people think of me.
he has better plans for us, so i should always hold on to my faith.
'i am the strong rose in God's eyes - beautiful, pure and strong.'
at the end of the night jess gave me a gift, attached a card with written words reminding me to be strong.
the gift is a crystal puzzle... which put all 44 pieces together makes up a rose.
