finally, i have my off days.
i've been working continuously off my ass since last week.
i wish i need not work.
or i hope not to work anymore.

i'm been looking for a new job since jan this year.
market so bad.
well, i have to be patient, patient and patient.
don't give up.

i'm so tired - mentally and physically since about 2 weeks ago.
sigh.
things happened.
sigh.

i've lost some of my favourite things recently.
so heart pain, so sad, so devastated, so hurt.
i loved them so much.
words can't describe how i feel towards them and my loss.
i can still picture them as where they are originally.
now, no more.
so bad.
sigh.

back to me, myself and i.
sigh.

my few dear friends, you should know i hardly and rarely love anything.
when i love something, means i rrreaaalllyyy love.
what to do...

i made a trip to asian civilisation museum yesterday.
to see the kangxi emperor treasures.
it's good to see the artifacts and can imagine how it was like in ancient times.

today, my mum, sis and i went to the zoo.
my mum haven't been there for the longest time.
we decided to go since both she and i happened to off on the same day plus my sis is having her school holidays.
well, make my mum and sis happy mah.

i'm back to my old self again.
no communications after working hours about work.
no human connections once i reach home.
i reckoned my hp bill for this month will decrease.

although i would be wallowing up in my room, lying on my mattress, feeling small.
watch tv, listen to radio, do my reading.

hope the things and time spent during these 2 off days helps to take my mind off certain matters and lighten my heavy heart.