i'm very grateful and thankful that in my lifetime, i have very good, very caring, very supportive, very sweet and very dear friends.
after over 3 decades of my life in this world, i don't have many friends left.
perhaps it's also my character and personality, i don't socialise alot.
my primary, secondary, nafa and uni friends/classmates have their own lives and during these years, all have dispersed, grew apart and lost/never contact anymore.
of all the people i meet, if we hit off well and can converse we will grow close to be better friends and build our friendship from there.
the previous 3 entries were dedicated to them.
though 1 of them is at the other side of the world, she still encouraged me with her emails.
of course, she hope she can be here too.
though the cause of my emotional downfall i didn't speak much of it.
people already made their choices and moved on their lives.
i am thus... forgotten.
with this fall, i have to learn to pick myself up and be strong.
i'm not a robot that can be fixed or rectify simply overnight.
i'm also not someone who can psycho myself with change of feelings and thoughts.
because i've given my heart and best to it, it can't be recovered easily.
i am not that kind of person.
i'm too much of a nice person that i take or accept what was being decided to me.
or how i'm being treated by other people despite after all i've done and how i treat people.
life is unfair.
am i really that small and insignificant?
i don't know why i will ended up like this.
i've been feeling sad and pain till now.
thanks to my friends for their encouragment.
i really appreciate it very much.
i know all of you are here for me today because each of you appreciate me too.
