maybe... perhaps...
Wednesday, June 24, 2009


today i was doing audit in the finance room.
this colleague whom i didn't usually interact alot but she is a nice quiet person asked me a couple of questions.
her questions are: why i didn't have someone in my life? is it because of my irregular shifts?

it was rather a ... ... question.
i paused for a second, put down the whole lot of paperwork in my hands.
i turned to look at her and say: -
"it's very hard to find someone AND have that someone who will loves me for who i am, what i am and how i am."
"it's not easy to have someone who is and will be strong for me."
"it's not just any one who is willing to take that step, much less to say to actually do it."
"it's difficult especially when one's family and friends' views/opinions are being placed at a much more important place than me."

"so, where am i in such situation?"

"is there effort done to fight for it?"
"will there be any perserverance to the relationship?"
"and eventually, the person's own interests comes first or to sacrifice mine?"


she listened and nodded her head.
i guess she's acknowledging my words.
she then said to me: -
"if someone really truely loves you, then that someone will be willing and strong to face whatever obstacles, problems and difficulties together with you."

i smiled weakly and said to her:-
"life is like that - never smooth sailing, always unfair."
"maybe... perhaps... i guess that's why i'm me, myself and i."



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