may 2009 is over.
just want to sum it all up.
hhhmmm...

it's the saddest, depressing, most heart pain and hurtful month of my life.
i've already live past an average lifetime of a person, how much longer will i still be in this world? 10 years? 20 years? 30 years?
well, i don't want to live long either.

soon, in a few more years time, i'll be reaching my big 4'O'.
i may still be the same as i am today with the exception in increasing of digit in age.

probably, i should be glad that i managed to experience the whole lot of emotional feelings.

maybe some people don't/won't even have the chance.

eventually, i will still be dust to dust; ashes to ashes.
and so someday, i will write a book of mine.

titled 'me, myself & i'.

it will be in my retirement plan.

i'll probably print it too.

to my dearest friends, i'll be sure to leave a copy for each of you plus autograph.

may 2009 will be chronicled in one of my life chapters.

the book will be filled with my most heartfelt words, sincere feelings and thoughts of my life.

it may not be very colourful, fanciful or interesting but i hope all of you will remember me in my own way.