this is it.
Thursday, December 31, 2009


end of 2009.
this year has been very eventful and emotional.
it's not a good year for me.
feels like i've aged alot.

i hope for riddance to all of my unhappiness, bad memories and awful experiences to be fed to a shredder - destroyed and disposed.
i hope to shred memories of bad and hurtful things that others have done to me or difficult circumstances i've went through.
i know i cannot get away or removed them ... instead i'm going to live with it from now on.

difficulties burdened my heart as i mulled them over and over in my mind.
affected myself and my outlook in life.
the pain may stop but the gap never closes.
the achings still comes and goes.
when will it end?
when will i forget?
i don't know.

it started with a heartfelt moment.
apparently, it couldn't be kept going afterall we have been through.
you mean so much to me that i have to let you go.
there's no moving on so i'm leaving.

whenever life's burdens oppress me,
and trials seems too much to face,
i tell myself:
remember there's a strength in me,

for i'll be given power and grace.

mo chridhe...

i'm not writing anymore.
probably will leave my thoughts and feelings somewhere somehow... i'm not sure.
i've thought over it for quite some time and made my decision/s.

it was nice knowing you;
great being with you;
utterly sad to leave you.

will you ever see me or hear from me again?
no... yes... maybe... maybe not...
this is a choice i've made.
so... this is it.



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